college started, life’s gonna get tough again, but this time,with a much more different picture, different people,different environment, different hair, different clothes, different things..

i had to let go things that i really love and enjoyed doing, perhaps you wanna tell me “oh that’s life!”.. but i just couldn’t get through the part where i miss my high school and friends so much, maybe i’ve put too much emotions on them, i was relying on them too much, as if i’m gonna be with them forever, till the rest of my life..

and it was harder for me to let go in the end, where i really am suppose to let go..

daddy booked flight tickets for me to go back to korea this june, to apply my so called IC, since i’m officially an adult now, in korea.. it’s gonna be summer when i’m there, and i have to take the flight all by myself, which i usually have my dad with me, but this time it’s different

gotta admit i’m pretty scared, but excited in the mean time

i get to shop, and buy things for my old and new friends, gosh, here comes the ‘I-Miss-My-Friends-So-Much’ feeling again..=(

took up dancing once again, after 2 months of complete non-dancing period, i found stretching terrible! my tighs almost cracked, haha.. and the next day, i was barely able to walk.. but i loved how it felt, it felt familiar

gaining weight as my college is surrounded with nice restaurants with nice foods, and you know how i can’t help not eating..

Ee Leen, my new college survivor buddy, bubbly girl, smart, cute, helpful, is there for me all the time, she was the reason why i’m still alive all this while, and not to forget, my boss of all time, yenchi, thanks to her, college life became much more interesting, we basically yell at each other 24-7, but thats how we communicate

met many new friends, met many old friends that i haven’t seen in centuries.. hot guys? they’re..well..practically EVERYWHERE, haha!

i hate couples, but i hate campus area couples EVEN MORE! irritates me like hell

people! I’m on my way to fulfill my dreams, bless me, think it’s gonna be medicine, no doubt

-The moments that i treasure very very much-

that’s definitely NOT everything… haaa, i had a great few years =)

ciao, off to dinner! muacks to everyone!

i know i’m suppose to update, but i didn’t..

but i just can’t help myself from forgetting, haha, what an excuse..

everytime i turn on the computer, what i normally do is, sign in msn, then straightaway to facebook, i always forget about my blog, maybe i’m too used to not updating..

just a short update i guess..

going to taylors college, class is starting next week, nervous much?

had my medical check up for the college application, apparently, i’m a foreign SPECIES that might be carrying some foreign DISEASES, blood test, urine test, general check up,eyesight check, and many more, but my body is healthy enough that i have a baby’s blood pressure.. i’m young!..just that my spine is a little bit slanted

i just feel like saying this, I’M STILL TOO YOUNG TO BE FINISHING HIGH SCHOOL!!!!

ahhhh, it feels good, don’t give me the weird look, i just don’t want to grow up this fast

i’m quite not myself these days, i don’t know why, everything feels weird..

and my little brother didn’t wanna talk to me for the past few days..

something great happened yesterday, something i’ll treasure and remember forever..

wth am i talking about? i just haven’t got the blogging feeling back yet that’s it..

you see my blog entry is so dull and messy and it’s just….black and white! i bet no one feels like reading my blog anymore.. i’ll try to get the feeling back then

maybe i should think about giving my blog a new look, yea that would be fun..

so anyway, i’m going back to kc high for the 4th time this week, i look so desperate, like a kid that never wants to be seperated from her mother.. im schoolsick

till then for the dunno-how-many times..

LOVE YOU ALL

an old photo of mine,if i’m not wrong,probably during form3..=S

just became official sisters with juang, and we’re gonna get a ring for ourselves tomorrow,eventhough i’m absolutely broke..and i just wasted my mom’s rm1600++ to buy the new phone..neh,on your left..

i feel extremely guilty about it k? i’m gonna treat my mom better from now on and i’ll learn to save money (hopefully it lasts)

I JUST TURNED SEVENTEEN.. and people kept on reminding me that i’m gonna be 18 soon, wth.. fine, i guess i’m not underage anymore in a few more days,lol..muahahhaaha, lots of stuff i can do next year..

but first i gotta get my driver’s license, which is a terrible thing for me, because driving is not exactly my thing, i’m terrified at it, my heart will beat so fast like nobody’s business when it comes to driving..

still hope i can pass the test..

so here’s my new year resolution, mr. phone-number-so-similar-to-my-mom’s asked me whether i have any new year resolution, but i realised i dont, so i spent a few days thinkig about it..

1) pass my driving test

2) get into college

3) earn some money

4) manage to go to korea by myself and hopefully come back safely (choi!)

5) dance more (get some medals if possible)

6) lose some weight

7) get a tattoo?

8) most important of all, HAVE TONS OF FUN

maybe there’s still more, i’ll update it when i think of something..

so that’s it for now~ if you think my blog is too boring and it’s lack of pictures, do visit my facebook page, all my latest photos are there.. till then, tata! i need better internet!!!!!!!!!

mj,remember the thing i said i want to do before i turn 18? hehehe.. happy 2nd monthsary! <3 i love you

oh kay, this feels awkward… for not updating for soo long and suddenly i’m back.. well, i was being forced to… neh, kimmy and jaycie.. lol

many things happened, i can’t write all of em out, it’ll be too hard.. and i’m using w1max, so… i could be dc-ed any moment soon… god bless me, hope i can at least finish this post..

fine, i’ll do a summary of what i’ve been doing these days…

i finished my spm, obviously..the whole country is talking about it.. did i do well? no idea.. we’ll see when the results are out..

i missed dance world’s 10th anniversary dinner.. “coolness”

i moved to a new house and i have a blue wall in my room, looks cute enough..

found out there were 2 female ghosts in my old house, and my mom just told me when she knew it all along, plus those 2 ghosts stole my stripe swimsuit and bag.. great..

went to sunway with choc cheryl elynn and phoebe.. had a great time with them..hehe, the meat was nice~ yumm.. tried out shoes, bought 4 bottles of nail polish,watched couples retreat,tried out fullhouse.. conclusion,spent a lot of money..

went to midvalley with some the HZ5s, nice catching up with my darling kimmkimm.. told her a lot of dark secrets of mine.. haha.. took plenty of pictures but i can’t upload them to facebook yet, thanks to the awesome internet speed of w1max..

currently reading 2 books at the same time… breaking dawn and precious/push by sapphire.. push is a nice book, i love it.. you can check out the movie based on the book… its called Precious.. if you watched oprah few days ago, you’ll know what im talking about..

went out with boyfriend, midvalley and gardens, watched ninja asassin (i dont even know how to spell it).. rain’s BODY looks good… and blablabla… end of the story

haven’t got my freakin blackberry..

getting fatter..

got a domokun as a birthday present from choc mic mariam and cheryl.. <3

slept over at juang’s place and went to sunway, for no actual reason..

and SO MANY MORE..

going to battleground final with juang tomorrow..

christmas is coming soon!!!

till then!..haha…i’m gonna update more frequently from now on..so, stay tuned? =)

btw, i cut my hair short

some people are just plain bitch.. they get upset when they see someone gets something they couldnt have.. and start spreading rumours among everybody so that everybody hates that someone, and that someone will have no more friends.. yea rightt.. thats what a 9 year old would do.. not a 16 year old..

you think we get guys because of our bikini photos… pfffft, jealous? then why don’t you start shooting yourself in bikinis and you can get the guy you wanted so badly..

like the one that you dumped before because he couldn’t give you what you want, and have you ever thought about whether you gave him what he wanted??.. you’re asking for too much my dear, and when he can’t give you anything, you dump him, now that he found someone else and he is happy, you want him back..

when you knew it’s not possible, you start making his and other people’s life miserable, you have fucking no rights to judge and comment about their relationship k?.. oh you THINK she’s a playgirl, and what about yourself? you THINK he shouldn’t be with her, are you the boy’s mother? you wanna control his life? he is not your barbie doll.. he can be with anybody he likes.. even if it won’t last long, it’s non of your business, and you think you’re psychic? can predict the future? then didn’t you see how swollen your face is gonna be if you keep doing this? because i’m gonna slap you sooo hard that you can’t even speak, sooner or later..

at the end of the day, the bitchy girl won’t get a thing.. you’re not the queen of the world.. never seen someone so perasan before honestly..

my sister is wise enough to try to stay out of the way, because she has sympathy, she has a kind heart and she wants everybody to be happy.. not like you

this is not a war.. but since you’ve started it.. we might as well join you.. maybe my sister won’t do it but i’m definitely not that kind hearted when it comes to my friends and my family.. let the best get their victory..

things can’t be changed, you dumped him, that was the choice you made, you’re not all that, not everybody would fall in love with you when you show some interest, especially the one you’ve hurt..

YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH.. i’ve never seen someone so bitchy before damn it

YOU ARE THE FUCKIN PLAYGIRL, get it?far worse than a playgirl

i am sooooo pissed..

i wanna watch 2012 with you baby sungai!.. haha, this is the only way to make me chill

till then.. shower

the day is finally here.. cultural dance society’s farewell party, and i was one of the seniors to get farewell-ed..haha.. 5 seniors,including me, crystal heng, hui jiun, qian ling and jia yin..

a day full of tears..every single year we go through this together, crying because of seperations..

i was called to the front to give a speech about my 5 years in the club,i had so many things to say in my mind,but when i stood in front,kimmy and crystal aka my ultimate besties started crying before i could speak.. so i couldn’t talk no longer,i had to stop because my words are getting blur,i myself cant even understand what i was talking about..

speech delivered but not the way i wanted,anyway,i know you guys understand what i was trying to say..

i didn’t cry as much as i thought i would,because it feels like i won’t be seperated from you all in the future,i could still feel the strong bond between us and that i would still see you guys often..

so save the tears babes..;)

I LOVE YOU ALL SOOOOO MUCH!!! <3

crystal,you made the most unforgettable speech ever!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! 4 words only!

and a big thank you to the senior1s…for the great party..

sooo many great things happened to me because of HZ5..

ok,change topic..i’m feeling sick… ate something wrong…eeuuukkk

can you believe only 12 days left till spm? i havent got the exam mood yet..

worried actually…

was caught by my english teacher because of ponteng-ing class.. he is such a busybody..

i think he pays so much attention to me because he is secretly in love with me or something,that’s why he noticed i was missing in class and saw me at the volleyball court.. ARGH!!!

need to go see him monday morning.. and i think i won’t be able to ponteng anymore.. i’m out from our ponteng groung--- The Bunks…

and a big thank you to my partner in crime..heng choc…i love you!!!!!

don’t get caught like i did my dear…hahahaha!!!

no longer a kc student soon.. T^T

signing off now.. need to go prepare for dinner session with my dear sis,newnew and their gang..hopefully for some arcade games too.. tata

i love you my baby sungai